So I’ve been buried with work since coming back from the holiday, which is why I haven’t written. Work has been making my days super long and I’ve been super busy, but the details of it can’t really go into a public blog :).
So with that said, here are some super exciting updates of what else has been going on other than work.
It’s 6 dpo – I don’t feel anything at all out of the ordinary, but guess I wouldn’t at this many days anyway. Overall I’m doing well, I have zero expectations of this working, but I feel very OK with that. In fact, I feel pretty much at peace right now. I thought by now that I would be impatient to get started with the next round, but I don’t feel that way. I’m living my life and actually enjoying it for the first time in a while. I’m working out, doing hot yoga, and probably drinking too much wine – all the things I couldn’t just sit back and enjoy for the last year due to infertility treatments. I’m also taking all of my supplements, so far they seem to be going fine, no side effects that I can think of. Exercise and eating better is going well – other than the large amounts of wine I have been eating very healthy. The Bahamas trip is in 2 weeks – not sure if I will have lost any of the IVF weight by then but at least I feel good and I’ve made the effort. Getting back to the exercise and hot yoga has been wonderful, even if the results aren’t all that I am hoping for.
Last week I went out for brunch with some girlfriends I haven’t seen since before the holidays, we met in the middle of an insane storm – lighting, hail, torrential downpours, very non-Seattle. Everyone went around and updated on their holiday until it got to mine and I didn’t really know what to say. I don’t want to be the debbie downer to everyone, but I didn’t know what to do so I updated on the IVF failing and then losing my shit in Denver over the holidays. Most of them already knew that it failed, a few I don’t see as much, but they know what we are going through. Everyone was lovely, but none of them know from experience what this feels like. At the end up my short update my very good friend sitting next to me reached over and gave me a hug and told me that she believes in her heart that this would work out for us, and that the story isn’t over. Just then the sun came out for a minute and a bright ray of light shone directly into the restaurant we were sitting in. I choose to see it as a sign of good things to come.