Hello lovelies. I am currently at 39,000 feet finally catching up on my blog reading and comments. Being online on the plane still geeks me out a little bit, I’m always in awe of all the technology we have nowadays.
The suppression check is Saturday morning, and I’m nervous for some reason – nervous that we won’t be able to proceed and I’ll have to go home and nervous that all those follicles we saw during the ODWU are some sort of dream and will have vanished by now. Neither of these things are rational, there is just so much hanging on this attempt that it is impossible to not have these fears I guess.
And now I need a bit of your help – advice and suggestions.
First – Advice. I was introduced to a friend of a friend via email that lives near Seattle. She’s on her second IVF and has been having a rough time so we’ve been going back and forth via email, we wanted to meet up but it didn’t really work out before me leaving for Denver. My dilemma is this, no one in my real life knows that I have this blog (not even my husband, that is a post for another time as I’m a bit conflicted on that as well), not because I’m ashamed, but because I wanted a place where I could be 100% honest and open without consequences. But I feel like maybe this blog might help her too since I have a ton of info on all the crap I’ve been through and maybe some of it, like the supplements, could be helpful. I don’t think she would tell our friend about the blog (and it’s not the end of the world if this friend found out, I just don’t think she would totally get the story since she’s not in this situation) but I still worry about it maybe having unforeseen consequences. I also for some dumb reason worry about her thinking that I might actually be a nutcase if she reads all of this. A lovable nutcase, but I do have my moments on here. So what do you guys think? Send her the link or keep it to myself?
Second – send me your infertility song suggestions! I’ve put together a playlist for IVF #3 from a lot of songs that I’ve found on your blogs but wanted to add more so I have a pretty good playlist going. Here’s what I have so far – some of these may not seem to tie to infertility but they have little pieces that have resonated with me over the last 3 years of this process.