So it’s day 12 today. Had my monitoring appointment yesterday (day 11) and the follicles were growing, although a little slower than previous days (last IVF I triggered on day 11). They wanted to see me in again today and were thinking I would likely trigger tonight. Went in this morning and the growth is still slow, I only have one follicle at 18, and that one is barely. So they are going to see if my estrogen is rising as expected and discuss me during rounds – but am scheduled for monitoring tomorrow and now the assumption is trigger tomorrow night. They told me this is nothing to get concerned about yet, but I am getting really scared. I can’t help but over analyze ever single thing looking for signs of failure. I think this is true of all of us in this shitty situation, we know too much, and that knowledge of everything that can go wrong is terrifying. I just really, really can’t handle this failing as badly as last time, even if I don’t get pregnant I need to at least know that I can produce a few good quality eggs to give us a chance. Going to return to googling ‘IVF stimming over 12 days success stories’ to try and find some happy stories to alleviate the growing fear in the pit of my stomach. Will update with another post once I get my estradiol numbers and here back from them on the plan.